Saturday, April 25, 2015

Dear Nellie



Dear Nellie,


I purchased a postcard  you wrote that was postmarked in 1910 from an antique store here in Virginia. You had sent it from Los Angeles to Santa Barbara, California, yet it found its way here, all the way to me on the East Coast over a hundred years later. It was addressed to a Mr. A.J. Peterson. It's a lovely postcard with a painting of a man driving a horse and buggy carrying a few passengers. Remember it?

Now that I am in the possession of this postcard, I can't help but wonder about you. Who were you and what were you like? Were you a young single woman when you wrote this card who went to parties and dances or perhaps you were married with children and spent warm sunny days at the park with your family? Maybe you were a little older and had never married at all and lived an unconventional life supporting yourself with work and were free to travel. Or maybe traveling wasn't an opportunity afforded to you but --still-- you dreamt of it.

You have beautiful penmanship Nellie. Were you able to get a good education? Did you read books and the newspaper? Did you ever voice your opinion on politics, the suffragette movement, or religion? Did you like music and the arts? Did you attend church on Sunday mornings and did you ever look upon the stars at night and felt with all your heart that God exists and was watching over you? Did you treasure little trifles such as ribbons, fancy hair clips, scented soaps, and silk gloves? Did you cross stitch by the fire and cook on a wood stove? Did you ever suffer from hunger or abuse or sickness; or was your life generally good? Or did you suffer from all of these things and still find good in your life?

Who was Mr. Peterson to you? Was he someone you much admired and in love with? Nellie, who did you love in life and did you marry him and grow old with him? Or did you secretly love someone else besides your husband whom you met prior to getting married and go to your grave with that secret? Did you have a great love or possibly two? And did they love you in return?

 Were you content with your life or did you want more? And did you eat plum pudding during the holidays and pick berries in the summer months? I know I'm bombarding you with questions you can never answer, but I imagine you have a good story and a life vastly different from mine, but perhaps we have somethings in common.

 Well, whoever you are Nellie, I hope that when you lived whether you enjoyed books, travel, or dancing that you found happiness and that you loved with all your heart and that your love was reciprocated and cherished to the end. And most importantly, I hope you felt the love of God.


Yours truly,
Olivia McGuire




Sunday, April 19, 2015

Half My Age




Being in my forties,
I am open to dating 
a man half my age,
as long as his mother is dead.


Olivia McGuire

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Over Time


when you are born to love
and have been waiting a long time
to meet the right person to love,
 but never meet them;

over time you can't differentiate
whether who you truly are is on hold
or if a prodigious part of you
is actually dying.


Olivia McGuire


Friday, April 10, 2015

Just Because




When my mom was a little girl there was no electricity in her village in the Philippines; and when the full moon would come out, she and all the children would come out to play delighting in its glory. It didn't matter that they were poor, and sometimes even basic needs were hard to come by. It didn't matter that they didn't have many toys to play with because they had each other, and played games like tag under the luminous moon. They would play in the streets and yards with shouts of joy just because the moon had decided to shine its divine face upon them. Are you ever happy just because of the moon? Are you ever happy just because...



Olivia McGuire




Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Visit



For Berry
In Loving Memory


I visit the most beautiful places
through imagination 
and reverie

It is how I am able
to be with you often,
still


Olivia McGuire

Monday, April 6, 2015

Sophisticated Words



It's true I love sophisticated words :

entreat
disputatious 
insolent
indolent
contentious
dejected
foreboding
diaphanous
cacophony
ethereal
enmity 
interpose
interject
scintillate
ominous
formidable
paramour
saudade
incredulous
ineffable
ductility
duplicitous
secular
apologist

and so forth...

So if you ever hear me use them,
it's not because I'm trying to impress
but that I love words
and am simply preserving the English language.



Olivia McGuire

Friday, April 3, 2015

Your Fancy Handbag



No one is impressed
with your fancy handbag which
costs hundreds of dollars

 Though it is nice to look at,
all it carries
 is your vanity,
your selfishness,
and your bills

Forget your handbag
Invest in your heart


Olivia McGuire





Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Let's Dance In The Garden



Let's dance in the garden
in the silage of nature
among the azalea flowers,
 violets, and roses

Let's dance in the garden
swaying to sweet breezes
to songs of yesterday
with earth beneath our feet

Let's dance in the garden
pressed against one another
and love each other madly

Come, let's dance in the garden


Olivia McGuire